Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night, mind running wild. A million thoughts being processed in your head about the most random things that exist. Well, that was me three hours ago and this is me now writing this blog as a way to express this wilderness in my head. I don’t know if anyone will ever read these words but i guess in these extraordinary times i can come back and read what i wrote thirty years ago awesome to me.
The thoughts:
Firstly, i am too lazy to use caps lock on my keyboard to turn every lowercase i into a grammatically correct ‘I’ so we will have to accept my lower case i’s, thank you.
Now to the thoughts:
I have been working since I completed high school. Its been more or less a decade since i received my first pay check. Although my future self might be looking at me and urging me not to worry. I cannot help but stress enough that I have done nothing substantial with my life.
Since I started understanding the way of the world, not literally but just the notion that it isn’t an instagram reel. The real world happens after that 30 second reel. I have wanted to do something memorable (i don’t know if this is the right word). I can assure you I am not an ambitious girl, in my head yes, but out in the world i just want a comfortable life, to come back to a peaceful home and to feel safe. However, when i sit in my chair, i want to feel proud of myself. I don’t think i have even begun my journey to feel that way.
Let’s not even begin with savings & assets, a decade of working and i barely managed to save. Sure, i could blame it on the pandemic but there are a million people out there who changed their life in these two years for better. Anyway that’s enough of putting myself down. I was hoping i could make this blog into something. Like an everyday rant but with something to give to the readers of this blog. Let me know if you have any ideas for me.
By the way my job’s pretty cool i get to travel, so you may see a lot more posts about me writing from different places. That’s all for today the sun is almost up from where i am writing and i need to get started with my day. I shall write soon. Bye.
